The following lines are not like anyone reading this. It's my personal opinion that I should express the meaning of honesty, even if something does not fit me once. She plays in the sense of dialogue between the German state, which I represent in Brazil and funded the whole thing, my job Terra Mirim itself, as well as my donor and my sending Amntena hopefully a role. Last but not least, this report next three volunteers who are coming in this operation site, to help early to adjust to the life and work here - a support that I have not received, unfortunately, before my departure, with best wishes to this point to my predecessor. But we do not want to unnecessarily stir up sand and we are dedicated the facts to deal with which it applies.
Let's start from scratch: the preparation for Terra Mirim in Germany.
Over the years 2008 and 2009, so during my time as a high school senior, I got over my club Amntena sent material that came directly from Terra Mirim. It should help me to prepare myself for the year in Brazil. My donors will remember - told to my flyer on the big and beautiful from the concept of "Integrative Ecology" as a model guideline is an ecological school. It was like the speech that I should mainly be active in educational performance in this school in Brazil. Even my own hand, signed employment contract speaks of "using in the project, teaching supervision" and that was - by the way - even with Dilan, my German colleague here, the case.
more information I got ahead of "dialogue partners" or in the form of a short description of Terra Mirim. Idyllic poetry has been described is how to taking care of the children in school, as about twenty people always follow along a spiritual, shamanic guiding principles by which they achieve many social projects. That they plant trees, protect the environment with the help of the local population trying ansa vinegars and the rivers with their own hands "clean.
Now my question completely neutral to the reader - once you go deep inside - What should we imagine this situation in the run information of service, in his work? That five out of eleven classes a week in an office waiting for calls, filing orders, phone lists, created and operates the Tuerknopf if someone wants to enter or leave the premises (Dilan)? That spends his time mainly in order to sweep leaves and grass to clean, warm food for the community to polish the tools to water flower beds and keep a library used by anyone in state? But first things first, I will but not as arrogant, constantly dissatisfied Bourgoise come out of Germany, who find fault with everything and has no interest in anything anyway. However, one for the course for the people here in Brazil (!), discrepancy between advertising and reality probably call in Germany for every apparent at first glance.
course be no mistake about it: we knew Germans that we stay in a shamanic community that the community has its own rules - such as fixed meal times, not eating meat and alcohol, and we found very interesting. Me as a vegetarian, it will fall slightly, to eat vegetables and soy, and his evening beer can be taken outside of the site itself. Or sometimes two. No problem so far on this idea. On the contrary, with great anticipation I looked forward to the thing that put me together with like-minded ernaehrungsmaessig should.
also shamanism we turned to a very open and interested in: What does that mean if a shaman as Maria Alba Terra Mirim head? What is the life of a community that has come together forever inseparable and deeply with nature? Yes, what shamanism is all about? To the answers I was after before I left Brazil very excited and also in dialogue with partners representative of Terra Mirim and Germany against Alba's son Tiago Easter was this anticipation stoked.
end was my idea of Terra Mirim in August 2009, just before posting this: Mainly working in teaching (even if I mastered the language is far from certain, it had surely still possible his knowledge to bring to the public!), additional assistance in projects related to environmental protection such as the bee project or in tree planting and of course being part of social Aufgabrn for the "service in the higher sense" that it was in the summary of Terra Mirim be mounted praised . Also, the fact that there are occasionally perform Theaterstuecke, heartened me, I had been five years of theater under their belts and could certainly my ideas contribute to one or the other place with as well as possibly my drums and guitar skills maybe useful give the local youth.
time jump, we now find ourselves in one of the first Monday of meetings to prepare the weekly plan by Dilan and me, a good three weeks after our arrival. The time until then for me was anything but easy. But first I had a tiring, but not particularly productive course in the bone, for which I for two weeks four hours a day by bus to Salvador and went back - for just a half hour most boring classes. And also I was at my regular afternoon Lichen return work which comes as absolutely no international understanding or similar ideas of international cooperation. As it was said almost "Picking weeds" forever. "Instead of going out into the world and people something about you - in the larger sense - to be able to give, it will be banished to, above a bed to kneel and blades of grass to harvest, therefore make the smallest of the small - work that will help anything or anybody, "those were my my tormenting thoughts that helped of course, do not put away the odd homesick attack -" not all was but a deeply stupid idea? If I would not be able to make a year just a civilian service and enjoy my life with family and friends do? "No, still I was drawn to a good cause claim, which has its meaning.
And now comes yet so on harmonious and productive co-calibrated shaman for the weekly meeting and therefore rumbles actual service with them after our first tentative suggestions for improvements of our work: "You are volunteers !. Community Terra Mirim, NOT the ecological school "confusion and horror reached me If we now maybe not in school work or play in projects of environmental protection a part Oh yes, certainly: two layers WEEKLY in school, and a layer to feed the bees were attributed to me is making three of eleven verkneiffen me one evening I could not then and opened a drawer in the reception, in journals the work plans of our predecessors and I could not believe my eyes:... they had indeed, as it gave our advertising in Germany, so, so well how to work every day at school, some seven layers. You feel honestly just a sucker. Especially with the thought in mind that the above-described meeting Maria Alba uerwaehnt not let that had "ALL previous volunteer work equally in all areas of Terra Mirim. The belief had come to the right wobble.
"Voluntary Community Terra Mirim", which should now so hot? We could find out. It is actually quite simple. As a volunteer in the community helps to Terra Mirim the community that they can pursue their higher activity. For example, if I'm plucking weeds, others have to make the community and can not devote "more important" things. Too bad that the shaman's philosophy at this point in the way that beautiful as this says: "There is no important and unimportant things - everything is important." They had in the Soviet Union also trumpeted that "workers and peasants" were doing reciprocal services in the sense of brotherhood and equality. But, as it is the way it is: some were more equal than others. And let me also this feeling in Terra Mirim not let go.
Why could I suddenly polishing tools, disinfecting yoga mats, buy vegetables for the community to go, pour plantlets, leaves turn, jaehten weeds and Dilan stagnate in the reception behind the desk? Clear response on the part of the institution: "Because it is absolutely important for all of us and no one else can make it, we are full of you. dependent. We jeht the weeds so that the beds are nice, so people who come here find it nice so that they may come here often, so that everything known to expand and will may, in its role as an avant-garde world model "Aha. Since we have the contradiction is found, the Terra Mirim and advertising of the institution divided: there are called volunteers (from abroad!) to use the numerous and very great for hands-projects At the same time is "totally dependent" on to help in obtaining (!). and internal cohesion of the store, no matter what land interests, strengths and motivations of these people in Brazil.
And that's not at all in Order, especially in later conversations that I - to which we are yet to come - to please the open accusation can be had to be a victim of my existential motifs. What a paradox and humiliation at the same time! A year in Brazil, far from family and friends that you miss, without pay, with Saturday classes and all this not mainly to help, but to benefit and to fulfill themselves? Of course you have an incredible amount of it, you learn a new language and culture, a different way of life to know, but the focus was originally to me very clearly can be a successful work and the hope that some young people and children on their way.
And even if it is so, that I would have been of adventure and the simple desire to experience something completely new piloted in Brazil - one who can blame them? It's basically the philosophical question of the survival instinct: Can I really be selfless for a lifetime, only for there are other interests and give all before my first? The people of Terra Mirim not live without self-motives in this place, it be made clear. The many shamanic rituals, chants, meditation, cooking and juice courses, yoga classes, the ultra-healthy lifestyle, a "master" and mother for all and these even traveled extensively around the world - unmistakably important motives, if not the motives of many Participants in the community To participate. And yes there is no one to blame, quite the opposite! It is yet to follow totally fine and understandable, the traditions of the ancestors and indigenous peoples of this world to live well in harmony with nature, allowed to heal within, to explore the world and to detach itself from the power company. And it's good that everyone has his fun in the matter, which forms the straight but a happy society. But one thing must be clear: to live in Terra Mirim, Selbsterfuellung means in the highest sense - to make an inner journey, and attain power for the upcoming (possible social) tasks, therein lies the central motif of almost all residents. Love your neighbor as yourself means It so beautiful even in Christianity. So then it is not 100% unconditional surrender of all forces for the lives of others. It can spark a philosophical discussion about it, whether it is possible to live without self-preservation? It would probably end up with Jesus Christ as a possible model and think about whether paradise can exist on earth so. A fascinating subject in each case not only for theologians!
Now I will not Schwaller excessively: the season between September and February, was also due to the holidays around Christmas time, very productive and informative. My motivation, I could always get back at certain points. Be it a fun time with my Volleyballmaedels, the three day EcoArtfestival, the slow onset of English language lessons with our one student (this year, it will probably be more!), The youth group - a really great initiative that has great potential, what a joy to more power - the "demonstration" in which Dilan and I went through the village and distributed leaflets that progress in speaking, beaches to finding friends outside, the trips, according to Salvador.
But some days I was drawn down pretty deep to miss this feeling, purpose. Perhaps in this case specifically caused by the contrast to the big trip with my mother, so were some Arbeitsttage of January and February more frustrating, as lust rich. This was certainly also the fact that the ecological school now had it all, still summer vacation, the two fixed layers are broken down so temporary. Instead of looking for alternatives varied, this meant only: even more reception for Dilan care (up to 7 of 11 layers) and Blaetterfegen / beds for me. And, although we have made it repeatedly that we see ourselves as a project worker, not as servants of the community. let
A true thirst for social responsibility languish me in the summer dry season Bahia.
Part 1: Between toucans, crocodiles and beach paradise
Part 2: Where is no light and shade
Part 3: Metropolis
Part 4: Weeks of change?
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